I met with Colombian twice today. Here are my STUPID moves I made today:
#1: I missed him when I woke up so I called him. Turns out, he was at home. He was in the hospital all day yesterday due to a stomach virus. He tried texting me but it was rejected so he thought I blocked him.
#2: I went by his place this morning before work to give him some medicine. We hugged and of course being us, one thing led to another...
#3: ...because one thing led to another, I exposed myself to his transmittable virus which leads to number #4...
#4: I fly out in a few days. Imagine having a stomach virus on a 30 hr flight including layover time. I have to transit in 2 other countries.
#5: He texts me later in the day, asking me what he should have for dinner. I tell him clear noodle soup would be best. I offer to go with him.
#6: We have dinner and he takes me to the bookstore to get me some books for my flight. We hug and kiss all night.
I'm so stupid. I'm leaving my wounds exposed for him to continuing rubbing salt on it. He still doesn't know what he wants. He still needs space. I didn't want to tell him that I was leaving the country for 3-4 weeks. But I ended up telling him and he thinks it'll give him the space he needs. But he doesn't know if it'll be long enough.
I'm so stupid. We're still in limbo. FUCK ME.